Monday, February 14, 2011

Assaulted





looking back
I publically maintained 
a pillar-like posture
privately crumbling
like iodized decay
under the weight of
her caustic cascade.
shame falling like
like dust at my feet.


she turned again
relishing the moment
and peppered me
tossing angry words 
like grenades
over her shoulder
dry and burning
upon fresh wounds


shaken, I had but
one wish : no tears




Thank you to Magpie Tales for the image.


Colour Me




Colour Me




Colour me midnight and ebony,
The inner, blackest side you'll see,
Sins darkness washes over me,
I drown within its inky sea.

Colour me scarlett,  do you see
Irreverant complacency?
Trangression and iniquity,
Have stained the very core of me.

Colour me crimson, look and see,
Him nailed and hanging on the tree,
His blood outpoured, flows pure and free,
Salvations debt at Calvary.

Colour me Jesus,  do you see?
His righteousness and purity?
My sins erased, I'm blemish free,
When Jesus is the colour of me.

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Greenhouse

                                                           




















Green and serene. The colour 
of her grandchildrens eyes.
Harriet repainted the house
ten shades darker now.
Perhaps a little tainted by the
stubborn stain of the feud.

They come, always through
the tradesmens door, bearing
todays currency. Daffodils,
hyacinths and a selection
of hot pastries.
It's a fair trade.

Quite suddenly it's summer
inside the Greenhouse.
And life blooms again
full and fragrant
but all too fleeting.


Sipping sweet tea,
and drinking deep
from her memory.
Rocking in reverie
for a time,
and a time,
and a time.



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A Lesson Learned

A restlessness,
A new life yearned,
A whispered lie,
A heart is turned,
A wayward child,
A Father spurned,
A shattered life,
A lesson learned.

A prodigal,
A bridge once burned,
A second chance,
A path returned,
A contrite heart,
A love discerned,
A life restored,
A lesson learned.



Luke 15 vs 11-32

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

The Foot Files, from Sole to Soul: It Is Well.


"Hit the ground running." I always thought that anyone who used this phrase was probably exaggerating and overstating it a little bit. Until today that is. Today, I hit the ground running. Literally.

My day started at 4.55am. I set my alarm to wake me so I could pray for my sister who was going to be at an appointement at 10.00am UK time (which is 5.00am my time..argh!) After 15 minutes of prayer in bed (which is never a good idea) I decided I would snooze for five more minutes before I got up to go running. I'd fallen behind on my run schedule, and needed to do a longer run this morning. 10km.
I set my internal snooze ( which is also never a good idea) closed my eyes...and fell asleep!
I awoke again at 5.30am in a panic and jumped out of bed. I ran while I put on my running clothes and then ran out of the door. My 10km  had now changed to 8km due to my impromptu lie in.

It was a tough run this morning. Running alone in the dark is no fun. And certainly not when it's -15 degrees with 3cms of snow on the ground, repeating the same monotonous loop for personal safety.
An hour later I'd finished my run and arrived home just in time to wake the children up for school. Then it was time to make breakfast for 4, lunches for 4, take a quick shower and then get the children out of the door for school which begins at 8.00am.

After school drop off, I had a few errands to run, then back home to throw in a load of laundry, fold a load of laundry, clean up the breakfast bomb site and start preparations for supper.
At 9.30am I had to drive back to school and pick up Elliot and take him to the school hockey game, stopping at the sports store first to buy a new mouth guard. 
I stayed for the first two periods of the hockey game, then had to leave to go and work in the Kindergarten room.

After work, I picked up Ethan and took him to see Elliots' second hockey game (yay we won.) Then it was home to finish making supper and take Ethan to his after school hockey practice.

Once hockey was over, we came home, hubby came home, we ate supper, and then I left to go to the church for a drama rehearsal.
I  finally came home just before 9pm and was able to put the children to bed and say goodnight to them Phew, what a day. Time to stop. Stop running and be still.

 I didn't need to go and tackle all the jobs that I didn't get done today, I needed to relax. My stress level was high and my energy level was low, so I decided to take a bath. Now, I'm not one who normally takes a bath, but my feet were throbbing, and I wanted to soak them. And since I was going to take a bath, then hey, why not go all the way, and cross off item # 28 on my to do list.

So the scene was set. Steaming hot bath, smelly bath products from Christmas, candles and the portable CD player.
 I selected a CD of instrumental hymns.Tonight I didn't want words or noise, just  peace and quiet. I pressed the play button and submerged  myself below the fragrant foam. Ahhh...

As the familiar hymn music played, I sang along wordlessly. I felt as though the beautiful, God inspired lyrics were cleansing my inner being as the bath water was cleansing my body.

When track # 4 came on, I couldn't help but smile. "It Is Well With My Soul." How funny that now, since I've been blogging about my feet, that that's what I think about, when I hear the word soul. So I asked myself... "When peace like a river attendeth my way...When sorrows like sea billows roll...Whatever my lot, Thou hast taught me to say...It is well, it is well, with my soul..."

Is it well? Yes, despite everything that awaits me, when the bath water grows cold...it IS well with my soul. God IS very present in my life every single day, through mountains and valleys, good and bad, ups and downs. He is my peace on the calm days and on days when I hit the ground running.
 I also rubbed the bottom of  my feet together. Very smooth.  Yes, it is well with my soles.


When Winter Weaves








When Winter Weaves



Through midnights still and darkest hour, upon a silent loom
A winter weaver softly spins, outside my living room

A crystal canvas tapestry, embossed on glassy face
As fragile frozen flowers bloom, from threads of liquid lace

The sunkissed silken strands reveal, upon an icy pane
Invisible embroidery, within a window frame




Tuesday, February 1, 2011

If I Could Only Say...(A poem for Elliot)


for my dearest Elliot, who stutters.


If I could only say,
All the words I want to say,
And could say them in a moment,
And it didn't take all day,
I would talk and talk for hours,
Conversations would not end,
I'd pick up the phone at 2am,
To chit-chat with a friend.

If I could only say
All the words I want to say
And not feel as though my language
Was on permanent display
Then I may not be so awkward
Might not feel so ill at ease
When invited to hang out with friends
To simply 'shoot the breeze'

If I could only say
All the words I want to say
And not waste my time just wond'ring
Why I have to speak this way
I would never have to daydream
Phrases fluent - flowing free
Wouldn't envy, what to others
Seems to come so naturally.

If I could only say
All the words I want to say
You might see another side of me
Than what's here on display
I could hold obscure opinions
Tackle topics out of reach
Share my every thought and feeling
Without worry about speech.

If I could only say
All the words I want to say
And speak out for all to hear me
In a bold, confident way
I would stand upon a soap box
Take a megaphone downtown
And I'd never hear "excuse me"
"Please repeat that" or "slow down"!

If I could only say
All the words I want to say
And my words were smooth as satin
Not like corduroy and frayed
Would you see that I am threadbare
Would you see the gaping hole
That disfluency has worn
Into the fabric of my soul?